Fighting despair

with a major in destruction. dont tell my therapist but when i feel down i still smash and burn things, well i guess she knos that already, but it lets out tension, probelm is out of 15 foster parents in 2 years only 1 has ever 4given me, luckily thats my current placement.

I put on a Tan suit and Tie and pick fights with kids who I think I can win who will fight back.. I almost always lose in a knockout But it is OK and I really hope to be shot in the chest and slowly bleed all over my suit to death