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This is all wonderful to hear, melissa, your family knows exactly what's best for you. And I'm glad you're having all these feelings and sharing them with us. I can see now that it's your grandma who got you feeling so embarrassed about all this stuff, so feel free to just let go all of those inhibitions.
Lea, your mom did the right thing in taking the lining out. Swimsuits are done enough already, they should not conceal the body. And neither should you! You need to change right out in the open in front of everyone. That is the point of a locker room. Trust us and trust your mom, we know what's good for you. Ideally, you should walk around for a while once you have taken all your clothes off. Don't get dressed right away.
Heehee Anna, I would love to be your student. What kind of things would you teach in a school like that?
This is all so great to hear, Melissa, you are progressing along nicely. Pee shyness is strongly connected to body shyness and they are both real problems, so I'm glad to hear that you are getting over them, and qlso doing a good job cleaning up! You should continue to regularly pee outside, as it is very freeing and natural.
At this point, you're getting comfortable with your body and some of its functions, the only next place to take it is that you also share your $%!@ion. You should jill yourself in front of anyone who wants to watch. Anytime that you are exposing yourself for inspection, you should pull up your $%!@ hood and expose your most precious jewel. What's more, $%!@ing while peeing will both help the pee come out and help you associate it positively with someone watching. You should think of touching yourself as being no different from blowing your nose. It's a bodily function that you need to carry out. After that, I think you will be all set. There's no real further place to take your exposure, although if your mom gets more strict with rules, I hope you will obey no matter what.
I must totally agree with Vicki. I wonder what should be done to help turn this into a more positive experience for you. Would be such a waste if you didn't enjoy it. I wonder if there are therapists who specialize in this sort of thing.