User: carg85

Has it already been more than 2 months that I have not replied? I guess its mostly since there is not so much to discuss anymore: you've accepted your handicap and are not in an environment anymore where you need to be really scared that people find out.

I guess your next steps should be towards independence: sooner or later you will move out of your parents house, so you could ask yourself (and your parents) what kind of skills you would need to work on to be able to make it on your own: cooking, washing, budgeting, simple repairs, keeping yourself dry and clean consistently, ... And perhaps you want to learn how to make clothes yourself?

And I do think life gets more enjoyable if you have some more friends and acquaintances, so I would support your fathers suggestion of joining a club. There are usually so many clubs around that you there must be some that would appeal to you.

Thanks for telling us honestly about all that happened between you and your parents - definitely not TMI, since this was a very important step in growing up and dealing with your handicap. And good to hear things seem more stable and much more pleasant between you now.
Being a teenager is hard, but being the parent of a teenager might be even harder ;-) I'm sure the situation in the summer got to your parents, so it wouldn't surprise me at all if that had its effect on their relationship too, especially if they didn't quite feel the same on how to handle the situation. Now that things are more harmonious and relaxed, those differences will matter way less.

With your new stability and your rebellious teenager phase probably behind you now, I guess there isn't so much need for support and advice, but I still have a few tips:

It seems useful to me to keep making progress in your independence, so perhaps it is time for another test so they can see what responsibilities they can trust you with? It will probably be a while yet, but I expect that sooner or later you find living in your parents house, with their rules and bedtime a little too confining for your social contacts. When I started university, I stayed at home at first too, since it was cheaper and easier, but after a while it started to bother me that I could never have friends over e.g. for games, since they went to bed pretty early and have friends over would keep them awake. In your case you would probably look for a room of your own instead of a shared room in a dorm, but I'm sure those can be found too.
It wouldn't hurt therefore to already take some baby steps towards becoming more self-reliant and independent. The way you describe your current relationship with your parents, you could probably just sit down with them and brainstorm on how to proceed with that. Since these things take time, it is often better to start with them before you feel it is getting time to move out.

And another thing I mentioned before: try to keep investing in social contacts, even though there are limits at the moment. Having friends like Rosa and Anya is quite important, and I assume you don't see them much anymore - especially if Rosa has moved to a further-away college. And having a social network and more practice with social skills will also help if you one day meet a guy you really like ;-)
What I don't really get yet, is that you write that it super awkward to talk to the college staff about your incontinence, while to Omega you write that you are quite desensitized about them. It still feels to me that you have some shame left about them, and can't quite see them yet as 'just' another appliance to deal with a medical issue, like e.g. a corset would be for someone with a bad back. Not surprising, considering half a year ago you were still in high school, where people would love such 'dirt', but you might still benefit from having someone your own age that you can talk about them freely, like Omega. (So just give the email thing a try - with the option to just delete the account if it gets creepy or otherwise unpleasant, it doesn't seem risky as long as you don't share details that might make you findable in real life.)

Are your pjs for the night still back zip, or have you compromised on that already? And have people ever made remarks on you wearing overalls and jumpsuits so often? Your new clothes are also high-waisted jeans and such, so you have more variation?

Hi Kitsune,
good to hear from you again. I find it really interesting to watch how you evolve, with large fluctuations in maturity levels. As I wrote before it is natural for a teenager to try things out, get used to changing body, mind and fluctuating hormone levels, and distance themselves from their parents. Not an easy process, but necessary to become a self-reliant adult. Often the move from high school to college makes a big difference: you get more responsibility and the whole attitude of the students is quite different than at high school.
Do you feel that there is less teasing, and that most people wouldn't make a big deal out of you wearing diapers even if they knew? It's probably still best to hide them, but it might make you feel more relaxed if the consequences of being found out aren't as disastrous as at high school. (You do sound more relaxed about it.)
How is the contact with the other students? Are you making new friends?

This was the last time you went to camp you wrote - are college students not allowed? But I do get the impression that next summer you probably won't need it as much as last summer. Do you keep in contact with your friends from there?

You write that there has beeen in a big change in clothing, but didn't you wear shortalls/overalls or jumpsuits most of the time before as well? Is it that you always wear onesies now that is different? Onesies often look like t-shirts (or shirts) at the top anyway; why always combine them with a top? You wear the top over the onesie I assume? Luckily there is still a big selection of overalls, jumpsuits etc. available, so you probably have no trouble finding some nice ones. Did your grandmother make anything new too?

About 30PoundsofRyeBread: it seems like those conversations are less suitable for this forum: not on topic, I think less interesting for the readers of this thread, and probably better suited for one-on-one communication. If you want to talk with him (and why not), why don't you make a new email address on gmail / yahoo / ... for it? Then you can always stop reading it or delete the account if you're getting uncomfortable about it, and keep it separate from the rest of your life. You can probably use the same account for chatting on Google Hangout / Yahoo messenger / ... if you would want real-time communication.

Do you regularly meet any other teenagers, if you are home-schooled and restrained all the time? Are there any who are treated the same way, or even only wear a harness?
Are the playpen and kids bed locked always if you are in them? And what happens if you need to go to the bathroom (especially at night)?
Can you describe the harness in more detail? Do you know the brand? And why wear it in the back yard? Is it then connected to anything?
Are your clothes also childish? I assume your mother still picks them?

That is extremely old for a harness. Do you feel that you are less responsible than other children of your age; in other words, do you have any clue why your mother thinks you need it to stay safe?
When is the harness used? Also inside, like to keep you at the table during meals or homework? And does your mother also use other restraints, like for the night?